Mujhe Pukaar Lo -- Harivansh Rai Bachchan

मुझे पुकार लो

इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे पुकार लो!

ज़मीन है न बोलती न आसमान बोलता,
जहान देखकर मुझे नहीं जबान खोलता,
नहीं जगह कहीं जहाँ न अजनबी गिना गया,
कहाँ-कहाँ न फिर चुका दिमाग-दिल टटोलता,
कहाँ मनुष्य है कि जो उमीद छोड़कर जिया,
इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे पुकार लो

इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे पुकार लो!

तिमिर-समुद्र कर सकी न पार नेत्र की तरी,
विनष्ट स्वप्न से लदी, विषाद याद से भरी,
न कूल भूमि का मिला, न कोर भोर की मिली,
न कट सकी, न घट सकी विरह-घिरी विभावरी,
कहाँ मनुष्य है जिसे कमी खली न प्यार की,
इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे दुलार लो!

इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे पुकार लो!

उजाड़ से लगा चुका उमीद मैं बहार की,
निदघ से उमीद की बसंत के बयार की,
मरुस्थली मरीचिका सुधामयी मुझे लगी,
अंगार से लगा चुका उमीद मै तुषार की,
कहाँ मनुष्य है जिसे न भूल शूल-सी गड़ी
इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि भूल तुम सुधार लो!

इसीलिए खड़ा रहा कि तुम मुझे पुकार लो!
पुकार कर दुलार लो, दुलार कर सुधार लो!

- बच्चन

Indian Television Industry -- What???

There are a plethora of tv serials around these days. But my God!!How bad are they! While I was at home last week I saw this program called uttaran. Now here is the scene. Icha is getting married and right now its her mehendi ceremony. Her jealous friend is lousily dancing on "mere hathon main nau nau chooriyan". Just like typical hindi movies which are now forgotten the song ends peacefully and the drama begins (Why do the daku/chor/any hinderance in walking and talking form appear only after the song has ended?? Probably even they are busy enjoying the song). While there was nothing to enjoy in this performance ... this dude walks up shouting at the top of his voice at the bride to be. Apparently this person is the groom to be and is upset because iccha has written him a letter (i would like to comment here that who writes letter these days but chalo ...granted!!) asking him whether he would be able to accept her knowing she has had an unpleasant past. Basically this guy is here to declare his undying love for her in front of everybody present in the hall. He rants his wierdo dialogues and then comes the most amazing part ... He says "tum janna chahti ho main tumse kitna pyaar karta hoon?" and he bares his chest which has icha written over it and says ..."Ye dekho"

Such scenes make you flinch! Now we know that there is good talent out there which can be put across on screens beautifully. But why serve such nonsense? The reason that people like this is not a thought which can easily be bought. There have been other programs as well and people have liked them too.

Since TV is more accessible than movies, it is only obvious that it is more true to real life. I mean people have their own life. Everybody is not consumed in planning on destroying other people's lives. There is life beyond love and cheating. Every other girl does not get married just to take up a pallu on their heads and keep getting coffees for their husbands.

I hope TV becomes more sensible and entertaining. I breaks my heart to see nothing entertaining.

Girl Power -- way back then!

There is a list of powerful ladies -- Indira gandhi, Kiran bedi, Sonia Gandhi, Sarojni Naidu and many more. But if you would go a little beyond centuries there is one woman I worship. Rani Laxmi Bai. Think about the time she was born in! 19th century for God's sake!!!! I mean that was the time when women were considered mere objects, slave to men , powerless entites and so on. This lady fought a whole battle in these times. Not alone mind you! She had this little baby tied to her back! I mean this nari shakti thing came into existence only when somebody actually had the realization that women are not just supposed to be bossed upon and fucked upon to produce kids and "satisfy" men. They were real actual human beings who should be treated as individuals. But I am not very strong with history and i am not sure when did this women empowerment wave started. What i am sure of is that way back then -- when Rani laxmi Bai was there, there was no nari shakti ki lehar. To add to this she was a widow. Wiodws were considered bad luck and were encourged to burn themselves with the corpse of their husband ...because they would not have any life once their husbands were dead?????? ( who ever came up with this ridicolous thought???) Anyway my point is hats off to this woman who against all odds went up their and fought with the strongest of the army. I mean WOW!!! If somehow magically I am allowed to time travel (wow ..idea for another blog ;)) I am sure to go up, meet this lady and salute her for what she is. Ofcourse I cannot deny the fact that she was brought up in a family where women were considered equal ( Kudos to the family here)
Just imagine if all the families were like her family! We would not have needed a women's day ..no 33% reservation bill! Because we would not have needed them. It would just have been about being an individual! nothing else!
This one lady made the men in the english army salute her! Jhansi today is known only because of "Jhansi ki rani" .Kudos to God for creating such an awesome and marvellous human being.
I quote Subhardra Kumari here
Bundelo har bolo ke muh se humne suni kahani thi
Khoob ladi mardani woh to jhansi wali rani thi!
Really ....hats off!!!!!!!

Its fun being a girl :)

Yes it actually is. Know what!!! If we want there can be no day like the previous day. That's because we have sooooo many choices. I can be a traditional salwar suit clad Indian girl one day and a modern trouser shirt donned professional the next day and a super cool super casual white tee blue jeans on the weekend. I can keep my hair loose on Wednesday, tie a pony on Thursday, put a clutcher on Friday and a bun on Saturday. Retail therapy or shopping in common language is enough to get my adrenaline rushing and a double trouble doughnut more than enough to keep my troubles at bay (time being).
I will get somebody to drop me home when I cant find an auto because .. Hey!! Its not safe for girls to stay out late. Now pardon me being a little mean but a sweet and tad stretched "pleeeaaase" can get lots of work done.
I can stay at home and never get bored even without a TV because i can keep myself busy all the time! How you ask?? Ok ... here is a list
1) try my wardrobe in different variation
2) apply various face masks (making, applying and cleaning up later takes a lot of time)
3) Keep removing and applying nail polishes, accessories etc
4) Experiment with your look
5) Experiment in kitchen (checking out new recipes from the net)
6) Keep browsing the net for glowing skin tips, healthy hair tips, so on and so forth

Oh well!! There are many more such ideas.

So although I realized this really late but I did finally get it! Girls like to have fun their own way and I am no different!!

A customized life

A life lacking talent and energy sucks. Just like mine. I mean Am i like this because God made me like this or am i like this because I made myself like this? Well if the correct answer hanging around in the universe is the second one then its going to be lots of work. Admitting it to begin with and then making amends.

I have always wished for one thing. It may have been (one of the) weirdest thought. Can I have a one to one with God?? It seems really funny but then things would be so clearer. I mean i could request him to make some changes in the product he has manufactured in the form of me :) or maybe we can talk about having a next life. Like lets start with the beginning kind of stuff. Like the "I wanna grow up once again" kind of thing. Maybe I would be more good looking and definitely and seriously extremely intelligent. Somebody who can think deeply. Somebody who can solve Maths as easily as forming sentences.

And then a few add ons please. Grace,dignity and poise to begin with. Now since these qualities are easily found in a dancer why not make me one? Dancers have largely a sense of music too because technically they are supposed to "go with the rhythm" Passing out from a fabulous institute helps.Something like IIT for instance ... But then it is not necessary that I would like to go with the herd in my customised life too. I would want to take up something so out of the league. Nature photographer for instance. Any photographer for that matter. I would be going places... capturing and preserving the most beautiful moments. Yes it would be fun. And while we are at it lets become the best in business so that I am also paid the big bucks. This "best in business" thing is cool when you have a golden heart. God you have to give me one this time. Because mom says that her dad said that you should always be humble and I think it makes perfect sense. So to sum up in my customised life I would be a beautiful successful rich and humble photographer who loves dance,music and is good at maths. Not bad. and not too much to ask for. Right God????

I hope you read this and consider this...really seriously. Until then can you just give me that energy and determination to make those amends???

Jiyo Life

Sitting on a bench at Mall road of a breathtakingly beautiful hill station, seeing the hustle and bustle of the markets at one side and the descending clouds at the other. Sitting at the banks of a calm ocean with a camp fire and probably leaning beside that special one :)
Coming back home after a satisfying and challenging day of work, resting on a couch with an awesome book or a great movie or both and good food of-course!
Walking along lush green gardens with all the flowers in the world overlooking a fairytale castle!
long road, red trees around and serenity everywhere
and living every moment with him, loving him, being loved ...that would be a true jiyo life moment!
Ah! I AM a dreamer! :)

What's happening

I really feel i am sheerly wasting my time and life these days. I am not technically sound and i am making no effort to become so. I am not studying for any competetive exam because I am almost sure that I will not be able to clear it and I dont want to do it just for the heck of it. I am not sure if giving any kind of certification exam is going to help so i am not studying for that either.. so all in all I am not doing anything other than FBing and downloading movies and sulking. I need to plan and streamline things in my life. I am not sure what do I want to do ...MBA??? i really dont think so ...MS ... I dont want to go abroad to study ! continue in software ??? What after a few years? PM PL and things like that? Its not that easy .. and I dont have those leadership qualities .... so all in all my life is zilch ....zilch professional life ... zilch personal life ....zilch love life !!!! God!!! and at the top of that if (God forbids) I get married ..then I am screwed! No more progress!! My life is done with! Uggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Help me God!!! Help me Help me Help me!!!!