Saturday, February 20, 2010

Around the world in a lifetime

I never knew I wanted to travel the whole world until I stepped out of my home to start living on my own. Now I want to see every place on this earth! I think the best job in the world belongs to that pretty girl who hosts the "Best hotels in the world" Show. She gets paid to stay in the most luxurious hotels, travel all over and take in every kind of different experiences! WOW! I mean ..just WOW!!!! It would be like this one job for which I can give my eye and teeth ! Anyway there is sooo much to see all around. Starting with apna Bharat desh ,I have not been to many places ( Thanks to my pitaji who would take us either to Raipur or to nowhere during our summer vacations) The one place I really really want to go are the mountains .... If I am not sure about anything else in my life I am atleast sure of one thing ... When I retire I am settling in the mountains. Then there is Laddakh and East of India which I am sure is a beautiful place. God!!! I really want to go in there! How I wish .. How I wish its possible!!! Pls make it possible God!
Then ...Why limit oneself to India?? There are so many awesome places in the world that I would want to go everywhere and take in every experience and every story along with me. Infact then there will be less time and so much to see ...Wow!!

Seriously ppl who travel and get to see the world are lucky!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

:-(

Not feeling good yaar ... :-(
Pata nahi .... andar se ek ajeeb si feeling aa rahi hai. 'm feeling uncomfortable. Like something is going terribly wrong. I dont know if it has anything to do with the error of yesterday. Partially maybe ...but ... yaar kisi ke chale jaane se itna khalipan aa jayega .. I never comprehended that. I mean I knew I will be sad and upset and things like that but .... I am feeling this huuugeee Vacccccum. Its this inertia ... i dont feel like moving from a position after i settle down. :-( its that bad. I dont feel like talking to anyone. And then the particularly irritating ones ..uuugggghhhhhh... I wish I could just shout at them at the topmost level of my voice and ask them to chuck themselves off!!
Please help me Lord! I have put myself into teribble teribble mess. I should'nt have .. But I did and now .. Its that shitty feeling -- the cuddle yourself up and cry wali feeling. At the top of that you are supposed to play normal :-(

Why me God!! Why me ????