Dreams ...

She was a simple girl. she lived in own little world. she had just started a new journey of her life and was enjoying every new experience she had. A free bird --she was happy flying around in her own sky.

He had a past he had left behind. He was learning to live again, searching for reasons to be happy. He was doing pretty well for himself -- moving on --selecting only the good memories -- forgetting about the bad ones.

No sparks flew when they met. Both of them hardly noticed each other. Love, she said, was not meant for her. Love, he said, is not possible for him anymore. They did not have the faintest idea how wrong they were.

Times changed when she found herself in a new place. A place where she could not fit herself. She felt like a lost child in a huge city where the only correct thing she felt she could do was to stand wherever she was. Maybe somebody will come back and find her. She was taken aback to see him extend a hand of support. She did not want it at first. She was OK being alone now. But at least she felt his warmth and was grateful for the gesture.

They were better friends now. At least for her, He was not completely forgotten. She felt happy being around him. Moreover, she looked forward to his company. A stupid smile would reign over her face every time he was around.

This may sound overused ..but yes ..she felt absolutely helpless. Like she was caught in a huge tide and she was completely powerless. All she could do was go wherever the tide was taking her.
She knew the tide was taking her towards the wrong direction. She was going to hurt a lot of people if she did not do something quickly ... but she was not doing anything to change the course of her journey.

He was taken aback by the sudden change in her behavior. He knew love brought happiness ..but it also brought pain. Also he had promises to keep and he planned to stick by it. "No" , he thought. He cannot fall for the second time. He decided to stay away but tried not to break her heart. But still he could not stop himself calling her everyday. Soon he found himself caught in the same tide.

Both of them had given up trying knowing the circumstances very well.

A year and a half passed . They laughed , cried and fought with each other ... Like every other couple they had their ups and downs ..but they survived .. never realizing that time was slipping away from their fists.

One day, he was reminded of those promises. He was told to make a choice -- a choice where She was not an option. Now he had to go. He had to go and he would be never coming back. Never would he scold her and fight with her. He would not be there to listen to her endless rants about here and there. He was leaving her alone and would never come back to give her advices and suggestion. He would not hold her anymore like he would hold her before.

She knew this day was approaching. But she did not want to come in terms with the fact that the day had already arrived. She did not want to let him go. Logically, it was the correct thing to do. He would be keeping his promises. She would be meeting expectations of people who loved her, had from her.

Why couldn't everyone want the same thing? Why couldn't they have their families and each other also? Why choose?? Love brings happiness for some and pain for some. Some struggle and fight and win. Then there are some like She and Him who give up.. who do not show up to the world. But still had an honest love story.

We will not discuss why they did not fight. Lets leave the story at that. Lets just pray that all love stories end happily and that She and Him are the last couple to go their separate ways not because they did not want to be together but unfortunately because nobody wanted them to be together.

Pure Pleasure!!!

Whats happiness??? No ... I am in no mood of getting philosophical! Just keep it simple. I am not a very intelligent specie of human being so I prefer keeping this simple and easy. Anyways talking about happiness and "pure pleasure" -- I define it this way -- whenevr you are feeling good and you forget the world around you ...thats when you are truly happy.

Like today .. just the prospect of going to GIP only to eat the double trouble doughnut was a reason for me to be happy!! I was not regretting the fact that i was alone ... the glee, the excitement made me 4get everything else. Wow!!

Then things like my favourite songs ...or probably a good book ....all this makes me forget the world around me and transports me somewhere else. Even a good movie .. a good movie is like 3 hours of pure bliss.

Happiness is very very relative. All these thing which I wrote above ... they may be absolutely passable to someone else. But then as I always say ...to each his own :)

So thats that!! Nothing philosophical ....nothing complicated. The world would have been such a nice place to live in if things were so easy ...right??? Well Thats Varshaland for you ....100% hassle free!! :)

after 3 years!!!

The last post was in 2007 ... Now it is 2010!! That is why I have always been apprehensive of this writing thing.. Anyways ..ye main he to padhti hoon. There are zero comments on each post :P

While reading those previous blogs ... I could actually imagine myself ..the place ,scene, day ,time.,my position while writing etc etc!!!

Anyways!! To update ... There has been so much in the last 3 yrs .. I mean ... us din jab maine last blog likha tha ..se lakar aaj tak ... Its been like ... hel of changes! But I was writing. I was writing my diary .. I was writing in Sayam's blogs and thing like that. And these days .. I am miniblogging through Twitter. So writing has not stopped entirely ...but its only when I reeeaaaalllyy (super emphasized) feel like writing I would write a post. So no promises of regular posts ... it wud happen only when it comes from the heart and words just flows and the fingers dont stop typing :)