Life happens -- with all of us. Some people juggle like crazy sorcerers. Really guys, how do you do it? Did Minerva McGonagall give you a time turner too? I go crazy. So the last few months were maddening ! There was office and more office and so much more of office. Leaving home at 8 and coming back at 10 , only to login again had become a daily routine. And then there was ThatElegantChic. You know who she is ..don't you? If you haven't then you must visit her -- here. It is a start up venture that a friend and I have put up with a lot of love and excitement. Of course I am just the writer/editor there and the friend is the real "face" of it -- but I love being a part of it. It has its own perks! and it has it's own work. Although she does the most of it and I cannot take away that credit from her, TEC is one more reason that takes up my time and I don't complain.Going back to office, here is a surprising thing -- I loved what I was doing. I loved getting into issues , developing a complicated logic and getting output out of it. Maybe IT has finally sucked me in. Unfortunately, writing suffered -- to a large large extent. I wanted to quit engineering and become a full time writer. Today I have quit writing and become a full time Engineer.
And even if I don't know anything in my life, or about my life, I know one thing for sure. I don't want to be "that IT person". The ones that Ambika and I used to talk about -- the ones that are too lost to look beyond their codes , the ones who limit their circle of life in the loop of their ID tags. I remember slightly bloating up with pride when Ambika told me , "You are not like the usual IT guys." Yes I was not , and I hope I am not.
So I know I am not "that" IT person, but what kind of a writer am I? What are the kind of writers? Am I a writer? I mean, I write my heart out and I love to do so. But I am so far away from being good that a look at the long road ahead of me is enough to tire me. And that bogs me down -- sends me reeling far away from my pen and paper.
I attended the writer's meet up recently when I had a chance. I hated the topic. Pick up a known hero, a known villain , a random genre , throw everything together and make up a story. Please! Somehow, I am not a fan of fan fiction. Anyway. I came up with such a crappy (unfinished) story that I never wanted to go to the meet up again. My hero was Andrei Androfski , Villain was the Joker and the genre was Magical realism. To begin with, I did not have a slightest idea about Andrei Androfski. Anyway -- as I said, I came up with crap. There were others of course who wrote brilliant pieces as usual. Pavan , in particular, like always came up with a fantastic piece and Nitish, the MIT scientist came up with a rap for God's sake. How do these people ace it every single time? Does being a writer means that you come up with awesome stories? Because speaking of stories, I have never come up with an awesome story -- you know , something like, a story on humanizing emotions in your head or the story of a mother and a daughter who are more like friends. I can never even come up with something like a Pakistani girl lost in India or even a story of two vampire brothers in love with the same girl. I suck at stories.
So that's exactly what I will do. Although my last project of one post every day fell short of ,I guess eight days, I declare a new project -- now that the office project is in production and I have just one unresolved "issue" to deal with. The blog project will be called the sucky story series. I will come up with stories. I will try to keep them good but mostly I will go with the flow. So they are bound to be sucky and stupid. But for the next 30 days (that's what I will at least try) I will write one story which may be bad, worse or not even reading worthy. But who knows -- in between , I my have a break through , or maybe not -- but at least this blog will spring back to life. The timing is right too. It's the first day of August tomorrow and a Saturday. I am supposed to go to a blogger's meet from Flipkart and IndieBlogger in the first half and meet in a relative in the second. But I will squeeze time for my story. I may not be a super woman but I can do some squeezing of time -- Let's see what happens next!
